“Creation is an act of love”

Strange and Feral Futures: Hope, despair and reciprocity

I stand on the bluff at Cottonwood Park, a little riverside park in the middle of Sparks industrial zone, overlooking the great Truckee river. While I hunt for the best spot to photograph, my son finds his way down the rocks to the river below where the geese are making their nests. “Don’t get too close!” I shout, a premonition of violence flashing through my head as I remember the feral geese of my own childhood. 

What if memory was as fluid as the river, encompassing not just the past but the future? The river of memory forks at hope and despair. My ancestors were restless and drove a reckless path here. Now as I overlook the great Truckee river, wind tugging at my hair, I wonder: will my children’s children come here? Will the geese threaten and posture at my family for generations? Grief for the future, the present, the past weighs heavily as I watch helplessly while my cousins destroy the planet, eyes set on other far off rocks. I hope my children’s children can learn to treat this land as though we intend to stay. I hope the river is still here for them to do so.

The beauty of the natural world undoes me. Like the magical realists I am struck by the extra-ordinary in the ordinary. Like the impressionists and the expressionists, I love color and light and paint. In my work the unconventional colors highlight the hazy space between memory and reality. Something happens between the brain, the eye, and the canvas, and the memory of a thousand rivers overtakes this one river. 

Let’s build a bridge over the river of memory, from consumption to reciprocity and find a way to give ourselves back to the earth we came from. There must be a way to reclaim stewardship of the land, to act in symbiosis with the world once again. I strive to create something new: a strange and feral future. I hunt for this future on my canvas. 


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